Does everyone hate me?
Does everyone dislike me so much?
Is life really worth living?
So much doubts...
Can I survive? Do I WANT to survive?
The dark.
Scary; an endless abyss. Yet so... so... welcoming. It promises bliss and a nothingness to hide in.
Sometimes, I try not to curse. I don't want to curse. But I will. I know I will. Sad. Angry. All those negative emotions.
I think I'm trying to construct an impermeable wall in which I will hide behind... A wall where nobody will see me...
I feel as though I'm taken for granted.
Why do people take me for granted?
Bitter tears.
I've been crying for the past hour.
I just need someone to talk to... to Talk to...
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My various, dark thoughts.
If you read this, don't spew crap at me. I'm not "emo." I just have these bouts of depression. And what?
Comments (7)
mhmm...sometimes i actually want to curse out loud...which i'm starting to sort of.
i think i had those kind of bouts of depression in JHS, not HS. well, i do have doubts frequently about stuff (also b/c i'm paranoid), but i'll wait until something really happens to make my decision, to make a change.
Truthfully, I don'tknow what to say in these situations.
But i think you're very paranoid [[ looking at the first 3 questions you have up there ]] which makes you very doubtful about yourself. You want a wall to hide behind.. What are you escaping from? Are you afraid of people's criticisms?
Well, i think i just wrote crap and nonsense, but don't bottle up your emotions. If there's no one at the time to talk to you maybe you should write it down and then slash at it with a sword *gleams* if always keep it to yourself, you'll break =[=[=[
But, there will always be the HSINTERNETCAFE crew with ya =D
I'll wait...because that's the only option left.
.... will pray 4 u kiddo
and maybe u can talk to me when u c me online =x
sometimes its also like a phase of moodiness and frustration... where crying helps to get rid of the tension
hope u feel better >.<;;;;;
lol...:o
sometimes to be strong, you should be weak for just that person. <3 or well, for just a moment. ^ ^ or so...
sometimes i feel as if giving up and falling back down into a hole, will make everything better, but i already know better than that. It's always hard to keep standing. I try not to swear as much, even if i do i use other words to replace them instead. But hey, letting it all out makes things better. =)
Feel better soon.
You know what? I think I'm more afraid to e-mail our global teacher than talk to him face-to-face.